Ansh and cars, a love story..!

Motherhood sure is the most beautiful, time consuming, exhausting and never ending phase of life. What I meant is, it’s been 2 long years since I last posted something and I realize it only now. Anyways I am here today for an experiment that I am doing with my 2.5yr old son.

Ansh, my son is fascinated with vehicles (toys). It is starting to worry me now because each time he sees a toy car, be it on TV, with some other kid, in stores or in the books we read, he wants it. Worst thing is he could fall asleep only if he is holding his cars (replacement plushies backfired) and when he sleep talks it is only about cars and trucks, CRAZY..! 

I have tried all possible ways to help him overcome this but nothing seems to have helped. We bought the cars he wanted but after less than an hour he would want another and then another, it is never ending. I have tried to say no but that only bring tears in his eyes which I hate the most. Even tried explaining him how many cars he already has to making a deal that if he behaves I might think of buying a new one but nothing seem to have worked so far. And each time we visit a toy store I see myself as a warrior heading for a war that I am going to lose anyway. 

So after a lot of thinking I decided to find the source of this problem and I seem to have found a couple of them. First, I made his Ipad disappear because it has been giving him an access to all cars (movie and toys) videos and games. It has been 5 days now and I can see he is starting to forget it. Earlier each time he ate something he always wanted Ipad in front of him. But these days we have our lunch and dinner either discussing what we plan to do in the day or what we have done so far. Best part is he shifted his base from couch to the dining table while having meals. 

Second, just before starting to write this post I made all his toys esp. cars and trucks or I may say everything that has wheels disappear. His toy baskets are still there but they only have toys like animals, puzzles (no car puzzle though), blocks, balls, crayons, and paints. Tomorrow it’s going to be a long day because no access to wheelie toy means full access to mom. Well, if that helps him overcome his fascination I will be more than glad. 

Will come back soon with the results.

Why you...!

Like any other girl even I had a desire, a dream of having the most loving and understanding husband. Its been 10 long years of knowing you and 2 years of staying with you and now when I think of my dream, of having a husband I feel, I should have asked for more. Because god did fulfill what I wanted and if I would have had wanted something more he would have fulfilled that also.


Other day while having lunch someone asked me what makes your relation with him so special. I went speechless, not because I did not have an answer but because there are so many things that makes our relation special.

Well.....

I cant tell them each time you hold me its like the first time.

I cant tell them each time you say you love me there is twinkle in your eyes which only I can see

I cant tell them I catch each time when you say you love me only for sake of saying.
I cant tell them your touch still gives me Goosebumps
 
I cant tell them your smell makes me go crazy and have you even more.

I cant tell them I fall asleep by hearing you snore beside me.

I cant tell them I sleep with your shirt beside me when you are not around.

I cant tell them you make me feel special each time you agree to what I say

I cant tell them that tough you flirt with other females you mention about me at the very beginning.

I cant tell them though you know I will catch your lie, you still lie to me and await for me to catch it

I cant tell them I hate what you like the most to eat.

I cant tell them I go crazy when you try to ignore me.

I cant tell them you give up an argument only to cool me down.

I cant tell them, each time you kiss me its like the first time

I cant tell them, your kisses are still same passionate ones like at 6th flr

I cant tell them, I am addicted to your kisses

How can I ever explain anyone that with each passing day I fall in love with you even more.

At war....!

It feels great to be at war almost every day in your life. Especially, because there is a twist in this battle, they come to knock you down from all possible directions and you are not supposed to attack them but only try and save yourself. If you do try to knock them or say by mistake you banged one of them consequences are severe.

It’s a war where you are completely by yourself. My battle lasts for 30 mins and I love these 30 mins of my day. In this half an hour I forget, I have a husband, a kid and a job. I am only focused on numbers, as to how many blows I got saved from.

They say women are never good at this but it feels great when opposite sex compliments you for your skills. Yes, a few days back I had a company when I started off for the battle, he was a silent spectator watching me from behind and when time came to depart our ways, he left saying “you really have very good driving skills. I have never seen a woman driving with such an expertise”. “Woman” “Expertise”, excuse me there are many things we women are good at, it’s just that men do not wish to see or acknowledge it. But before I could say anything I heard a honk and so decided to ignore the gentleman.

You do need expertise to drive in Pune, particularly at Hinjewadi. Those who are in Pune and are travelling to Hinjewadi would surely agree that driving in these lanes is never less than a war… I prefer calling myself an opportunist driver, wherever you find a gap be the first one to squeeze in. If you lose it there would be atleast 4 cars, 3 six sitters, a bus and half a dozen of two wheelers honking and fuming at you…

For now happy and safe driving..!

I am distant from....

Alright, this was long awaited.. Ah nothing big but yes its after an year I finally got into a phase of writing… Its not that I never got a thought of writing but you need to be in right state of mind to do it. I did get in to that phase many a times however my phase did not last for more than 5 mins.

They say motherhood is the best thing that can ever happen to a woman, yes indeed. But why the hell they did not tell what all you have to stay away from. Oh my god, there are so many things, rather every thing u love to do, you will stop doing. Here is a quick count.

Pubs and discos, folks close to me know what a freak I was and now somewhere from within I hear a voice “You are a mother now, don’t even think of it”. Well if these words don’t discourage then it says “Look at yourself, you are completely out of shape to be there”. And that’s it, damage is done and with time idea of going to such place will gradually and eventually fade away.

Beauty parlor, there was time when you never missed your parlor appointment and u never dared to step out with being threaded but now comes the time it wont mater. You are so much engulfed in your child that going to parlor becomes a waste of time. I am not exaggerating here but there were days after baby came that I had not seen in the mirror even for a single moment.

Spending quality time with your better half, what is that??? We do speak to each other and we do share our tales but these days day tale only has one character in it. “Oh you know what he did today, oh you know what he ate today, oh you know he did not shit today.....” My briefing starts from Ansh and ends up on him and in between if I recall that other Ansh we also have life I will ask my husband about his day. But guess what, my husband is quick enough to drag me where I was with my tale. “Did u take him for stroll, is he having his food properly, I think he is putting on weight……..” Its endless…

Sleep…. I love being in this state and have become very emotional about it. I don’t know when was the last time I had a sound sleep, maybe one year back or more I guess. You won’t believe it but now my prayers have changed… Each day during my prayers I request my dear lord to let my son sleep for atleast 4 hours in row. It has not yet happened and I am waiting for my prayers to get heard. There are days when all you want is 30 mins of nap and your dear child grins at you. As if he is saying no mama this isn’t what I want. I want you to do inky pinky ponkey and those new steps you did yesterday.

Gossip…. Work gossip forget it, you wont even feel like talking or even thinking about work. Then follows gossip with friends, well after baby you will be forced to ab abandon “Gossip”. My dear friends pity me and don’t call because they feel baby keeps me busy and I don’t call them because yes baby does keep me busy. The other active gossiper in my life is my mother, she has got so much to tell but I simply shut her down. And recently, my closing her down gave her a feeling that baby has got onto my nerve and that’s the reason I am no longer interested in “”Gossip”. And then I asked myself “Did I really gave up on Gossip?? What am I turning into and there comes the inner voice MOTHER”

Shopping… Girls are shopoholic so am I, no so was I. Its like saying once up on time I shopped like a freak without worrying about price tags. And now comes the time that the only section I want to visit is kids’ zone. You will have 100 reasons to not buy anything for yourself and will have 200 reasons to buy things for you child, “Oh he is my first child he deserves this, he is the only child he deserves this, he is so cute he deserves this”. I crossed my line when I ended my buying a pink frock for my son why?? Simply because it was really pretty and beautiful and well we all know girls have got so many choices to make when it comes to clothing. In other words you will have endless reasons to buy the most stupid thing for your kid and you will defend these reasons and win with no struggle.

If I go on, I believe my list wont end, crux is your child will bring a lot of change in and around you. And with each passing day you realize nothing is more important then being with your little one. Yeah, I do miss each of the fun stuff I have mentioned but then all this looks so petty when Ansh looks at me smiles. Thats what he is doing now so time to go and have a blast with him...

Will come back soon....!

My angel

You are my angel, you are my world.
What would I have done without you..
You are my heart, you are my soul...
You mean everything in this world...