Alright, this was long awaited.. Ah nothing big but yes its after an year I finally got into a phase of writing… Its not that I never got a thought of writing but you need to be in right state of mind to do it. I did get in to that phase many a times however my phase did not last for more than 5 mins.
They say motherhood is the best thing that can ever happen to a woman, yes indeed. But why the hell they did not tell what all you have to stay away from. Oh my god, there are so many things, rather every thing u love to do, you will stop doing. Here is a quick count.
Pubs and discos, folks close to me know what a freak I was and now somewhere from within I hear a voice “You are a mother now, don’t even think of it”. Well if these words don’t discourage then it says “Look at yourself, you are completely out of shape to be there”. And that’s it, damage is done and with time idea of going to such place will gradually and eventually fade away.
Beauty parlor, there was time when you never missed your parlor appointment and u never dared to step out with being threaded but now comes the time it wont mater. You are so much engulfed in your child that going to parlor becomes a waste of time. I am not exaggerating here but there were days after baby came that I had not seen in the mirror even for a single moment.
Spending quality time with your better half, what is that??? We do speak to each other and we do share our tales but these days day tale only has one character in it. “Oh you know what he did today, oh you know what he ate today, oh you know he did not shit today.....” My briefing starts from Ansh and ends up on him and in between if I recall that other Ansh we also have life I will ask my husband about his day. But guess what, my husband is quick enough to drag me where I was with my tale. “Did u take him for stroll, is he having his food properly, I think he is putting on weight……..” Its endless…
Sleep…. I love being in this state and have become very emotional about it. I don’t know when was the last time I had a sound sleep, maybe one year back or more I guess. You won’t believe it but now my prayers have changed… Each day during my prayers I request my dear lord to let my son sleep for atleast 4 hours in row. It has not yet happened and I am waiting for my prayers to get heard. There are days when all you want is 30 mins of nap and your dear child grins at you. As if he is saying no mama this isn’t what I want. I want you to do inky pinky ponkey and those new steps you did yesterday.
Gossip…. Work gossip forget it, you wont even feel like talking or even thinking about work. Then follows gossip with friends, well after baby you will be forced to ab abandon “Gossip”. My dear friends pity me and don’t call because they feel baby keeps me busy and I don’t call them because yes baby does keep me busy. The other active gossiper in my life is my mother, she has got so much to tell but I simply shut her down. And recently, my closing her down gave her a feeling that baby has got onto my nerve and that’s the reason I am no longer interested in “”Gossip”. And then I asked myself “Did I really gave up on Gossip?? What am I turning into and there comes the inner voice MOTHER”
Shopping… Girls are shopoholic so am I, no so was I. Its like saying once up on time I shopped like a freak without worrying about price tags. And now comes the time that the only section I want to visit is kids’ zone. You will have 100 reasons to not buy anything for yourself and will have 200 reasons to buy things for you child, “Oh he is my first child he deserves this, he is the only child he deserves this, he is so cute he deserves this”. I crossed my line when I ended my buying a pink frock for my son why?? Simply because it was really pretty and beautiful and well we all know girls have got so many choices to make when it comes to clothing. In other words you will have endless reasons to buy the most stupid thing for your kid and you will defend these reasons and win with no struggle.
If I go on, I believe my list wont end, crux is your child will bring a lot of change in and around you. And with each passing day you realize nothing is more important then being with your little one. Yeah, I do miss each of the fun stuff I have mentioned but then all this looks so petty when Ansh looks at me smiles. Thats what he is doing now so time to go and have a blast with him...
Will come back soon....!
They say motherhood is the best thing that can ever happen to a woman, yes indeed. But why the hell they did not tell what all you have to stay away from. Oh my god, there are so many things, rather every thing u love to do, you will stop doing. Here is a quick count.
Pubs and discos, folks close to me know what a freak I was and now somewhere from within I hear a voice “You are a mother now, don’t even think of it”. Well if these words don’t discourage then it says “Look at yourself, you are completely out of shape to be there”. And that’s it, damage is done and with time idea of going to such place will gradually and eventually fade away.
Beauty parlor, there was time when you never missed your parlor appointment and u never dared to step out with being threaded but now comes the time it wont mater. You are so much engulfed in your child that going to parlor becomes a waste of time. I am not exaggerating here but there were days after baby came that I had not seen in the mirror even for a single moment.
Spending quality time with your better half, what is that??? We do speak to each other and we do share our tales but these days day tale only has one character in it. “Oh you know what he did today, oh you know what he ate today, oh you know he did not shit today.....” My briefing starts from Ansh and ends up on him and in between if I recall that other Ansh we also have life I will ask my husband about his day. But guess what, my husband is quick enough to drag me where I was with my tale. “Did u take him for stroll, is he having his food properly, I think he is putting on weight……..” Its endless…
Sleep…. I love being in this state and have become very emotional about it. I don’t know when was the last time I had a sound sleep, maybe one year back or more I guess. You won’t believe it but now my prayers have changed… Each day during my prayers I request my dear lord to let my son sleep for atleast 4 hours in row. It has not yet happened and I am waiting for my prayers to get heard. There are days when all you want is 30 mins of nap and your dear child grins at you. As if he is saying no mama this isn’t what I want. I want you to do inky pinky ponkey and those new steps you did yesterday.
Gossip…. Work gossip forget it, you wont even feel like talking or even thinking about work. Then follows gossip with friends, well after baby you will be forced to ab abandon “Gossip”. My dear friends pity me and don’t call because they feel baby keeps me busy and I don’t call them because yes baby does keep me busy. The other active gossiper in my life is my mother, she has got so much to tell but I simply shut her down. And recently, my closing her down gave her a feeling that baby has got onto my nerve and that’s the reason I am no longer interested in “”Gossip”. And then I asked myself “Did I really gave up on Gossip?? What am I turning into and there comes the inner voice MOTHER”
Shopping… Girls are shopoholic so am I, no so was I. Its like saying once up on time I shopped like a freak without worrying about price tags. And now comes the time that the only section I want to visit is kids’ zone. You will have 100 reasons to not buy anything for yourself and will have 200 reasons to buy things for you child, “Oh he is my first child he deserves this, he is the only child he deserves this, he is so cute he deserves this”. I crossed my line when I ended my buying a pink frock for my son why?? Simply because it was really pretty and beautiful and well we all know girls have got so many choices to make when it comes to clothing. In other words you will have endless reasons to buy the most stupid thing for your kid and you will defend these reasons and win with no struggle.
If I go on, I believe my list wont end, crux is your child will bring a lot of change in and around you. And with each passing day you realize nothing is more important then being with your little one. Yeah, I do miss each of the fun stuff I have mentioned but then all this looks so petty when Ansh looks at me smiles. Thats what he is doing now so time to go and have a blast with him...
Will come back soon....!
